Thank You.

The phrase "Setiap yang bernyawa pasti akan kembali ke Rahmatullah" scares me. I've lost 2 people that were so close to me. I can't imagine children who are fatherless or motherless. I am blessed that I still have both parents to turn to today. I still get to listen to their voice even though we're a thousand miles away. Never in my life have I thought that everything is temporary. Only up till today,that I realized,that everything in life is never long-lasting. Somehow everything has an end to it. It is just a matter of where and when. We never take time to look back at the things that were taken from and given to us. We never take time to say "Thank you" for all the opportunities that were handed to us. All we do is blame Him,blame each other for all the things that happened without knowing that everything that happened before,only opens more doors to new and undiscovered things. 

Kak Farida (my housemate) told me a true story that brought me to tears this morning. She knew that I had just lost someone who meant so much in my life. So she told me her story about how she was there during the passing of her late grandmother. How they helped their grandmother to sit on the wheelchair when she had request to be put near the window. As she was looking out through the window,she called both Kak Farida and Kak Farida's sister because she saw and heard someone giving the salaam. Kak Farida said she looked through the window and saw no one. She tried to reassure this again with her grandmother whether she really saw someone. Her grandmother told her repeatedly the same thing,"Ada orang bagi salaam". Turned out,it was Malaikat Maut calling (Only Allah knows what is hidden).Right after that her grandmother fell from the wheelchair as she looked up to the sky. I was actually confused as the story went on. Only then Kak Farida told me that "Pintu langit dibuka dan hanya orang yang akan pergi je yang tahu". Quickly after that,their grandmother asked Kak Farida's sister to bath her and so she did. 

Kak Farida's story reminded me that,she had had the opportunity to be there for her grandmother just like how I was there before the passing of my late grandfather (father's side) and how my mother was there for her father who recently just passed away. We give little thanks to the opportunities of knowing such loving people in our lives before they left us. We give little thanks to God for letting us be part of such wonderful people. 

I may have not been there on the day that both my grandfathers passed away but I never regret the times that I have spent with them and I can only thank Him so much for blessing me with two of the most wonderful and joyous people in my life. I pray that He can love both of them as much as they loved us all dearly. 

Not many had had the opportunity that was given to me. I was able to perform Umrah with my late Atok before he left us all. I was there to push his wheelchair so we could both go perform our Umrah. I was there to whisper in his ears all the Surahs in the Holy Qoran and to remind him to say his Du'a. I was there to put his clothes on for him. I was there to get food for both my grandparents while we were in Makkah and Madinah. And I don't regret any time that I had spent with him and I feel blessed that among everyone,I was given such opportunity to be with him at that time. 

My mother told me she didn't feel remorse about my late Tok Ayah because before he left,she was there to take his wudu' for him and had guided him to perform the Salaat Zuhr before he left us all that evening. My mother told me he had whispered in my mother's ears "Hati kena baik,Rose" at the hospital while she was reading the Qoran for him to listen. 

In the end,we will also be joining them. Our parents will be joining them. So we should feel blessed and to always remind ourselves to say "Thank you" more often for the opportunities whatever it may be before we leave for good to meet our Creator. 

Salam Ramadhan Qareem.