Life As We Know It

Hi,

I swear I'm such a bad blogger cause I promised I'd blog more often but I didn't..so,I'm sorry,again. A lot of things took place right after SPM. Believe it or not,I'd rather go to school now than be stuck at home doing nothing. It's not like I'm doing nothing. I am doing something but high school is less complicated than reality (if that even makes sense!).

I swear I love my Mac even if it's the oldest version of them all and it has no Lion OSX or whatsoever apps like iCloud or anything. Simple and useable. Even if it's too heavy. The other day I was planning to get a Mac Pro or Mac Air cause no doubt,I'm going need it for college assignments and so on but then again,this Mac is still functioning and I love it even if it has internal damages caused by my so-called rough hands. So I'm going to think 10x before I change to a new Mac.

Anyways,the pictures above I took during my recent trip to Krabi,Thailand. It's so beautiful there that at some point,I felt that I was living in a mini-heaven. Mae Bay is the best of them all. The sand,the sea and even the people were amazing. I wish I could live like Leonardo DC,just like in the movie 'The Beach'. They filmed the movie there itself and it's no surprise that nobody wanted to get out of the island till they were forced. But no joke,the view was breathtaking and the cool air was refreshing. I could feel the water on my skin evaporating slowly as I was on the speed boat. KRABI IS A MUST FOR COUPLES OUT THERE.

Besides that,I failed my theory driving test twice. Very humiliating for someone who said "SPM was kacang putih" indeed. SPM was easy because most of the subjects are in English. But I won't give up. I'm not the quitter type anyways. At some point I actually cried in front of Kak Jaja,telling her I'd hire a driver for the rest of my life so I don't have to drive. I'm going to use public transport if I'm at New York anyways. I'll make sure that dad rent a place near my campus so I could cycle to class. At least I'm persevering the environment. I'd like to think of it that way.

Few more days till New Year's Eve. I don't have any plans tho for NYE except to study. I bet everyone's going to parties and plain ol' Anis is at home,studying TOEFL and SATs. Hard work pays off sooner or later right? Well,hopefully. Plus,I plan to read the Yaasin and perform my salaat hajat for a better year ahead since I'm going to be solo soon. Pretty scary,no doubt.

Results I'm going to expect in 2013:
SPM
TOEFL
SATs
College acceptance letter

Exactly. Pretty scary if you ask me. Being 18 is not fun at all. I'd expect it to be less stressful and less complicated than what I went through during my SPM year but it's a whole lot worst. Nevertheless,I never gave up on anything that I do.

"Finish what you started. Don't stop halfway"-Mom

I'm actually on job-hunt and I plan to start working once my maid is back. There was a job offer at the Animal Clinics that I really like and they have the most adorable kittens and puppies in the whole wide world. We'll see. It's closer to becoming a WWF volunteer. I actually signed up for that but they never called so...

I went out with my old friends back in Melaka and it was fun. After 2 years. Actually I went out with the prom committee and then decided that I should go for my last prom in Melaka. It was fun despite the weird crowd that didn't know how to dance (awkward!). But I think I'll be going for another prom in February. 

Anyways,Merry Christmas and Happy Anniversary to my mom and dad! 20 years together and still standing strong. 

xo

Life Behind The Scenes

Hello.

About 5 months from now,I'm going to fly off to the States (I've repeated this so many times,I know). I was actually already summing up ideas in my head this morning as I woke up for Fajr prayers for 2014's summer break. I can't plan my 2013 summer break cause I'll be in the States by then and I need to adjust myself to the new environment that is so different from home. What if I don't like it there? or what if I'm too homesick?

I've been questioning myself a lot these days on how I'm going to survive solo at a foreign country. Not to mention,the biggest country on the map. What would I do if I suddenly broke into pieces and this time,mom won't be there to mend me back? She's going to be miles away. I guess I'm used to running to her everyday at home and asking her advise on A LOT of things. When I say A LOT,you have no idea what sort of things we talk about. I'm used to having my family everywhere. If I feel like giving up,I'd turn to my family and they will always be there to either tell me what I should or should not do (even my siblings).

What if I fall in love with a person that's going to hurt me over and over and over again? and this time,mom won't be there to actually tell me "He's an arse,to fuck with him". What ifs? What ifs?

At the same time,I'm honestly excited that I'll be living alone and starting a new fresh start at some foreign country where people don't even know I existed before. It's good to come out of the shell and for once see what life has to offer. Get to know new friends and all. Sounds exciting.

I guess this is normal for those who just graduated high school to feel this way. I know what I want and I stand firm on what I believe and want to achieve. There's not a big mark on that,of course.

Everyday I wake up and ask myself if I'm ever going to make a change in this world? Where will I make my name in this world.

But then again,I think too much.

Mom: "I was once at your place. Be strong cause not many people like beautiful and smart women especially women themselves"

HAH. Kept me motivated,definitely.

Till then,x.

Happpy Birthday Adik ;)

I CAN RAP YO!

The cutest song ever: James Morrison
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UZp6dhheriM

It's 11.35pm and I'm soooo jobless. I should be studying chemistry but yet this lazy bum of mine decided to head over to my mac and type this. I just wasted 32048038290 seconds.

Feeling like a rapper tonight :P kidding. I no longer have twitter or facebook. I feel light.
I should REALLY be studying right now.
Goodnight.

SOON SOOOOOOON...

Heeeeellooooo!

10 more days till I'm done with SPM. It's actually stressing me out but I've decided to keep calm and just chill...*freak out mode* kiddinggg. Nways,mom decided to head to Krabi on the 7th,so yours truly is excited!! Just what I need: a good holiday :D

Things to do:
-tanning
-snorkel
-LOOK FOR SMOKIN' HOT GUYS (kidding,scratch that)

Plus I've been gaining soooooo much weight! "stress weight" as mom would call it. So I think it'll be good to hit the gym a week before Krabi and get that "so-called" bikini bod :P JUST SALAD AND MINERAL WATER.

Enough of diet and nutrition,I feel like a skinny bumm model talking about her weight and it makes me more depress when I look at my weight right now hahaha..k's. I've applied to a lot of unis in the States:

Uni's I applied to:
-Penn State Uni
-NAU
-UCLA
-UCSC
-UCSD
-UC Berkeley
-UC Bakersfield
-WVU

I'm hoping to get into either UCLA or UC Santa Cruz since both are near to the airports. But Santa Cruz sounds good. Anddd yours truly has registered to take TOEFL and SATs on February...nervous crap. Mom said I could work at a bookstore just to store cash right after I get my driving license. Plus,I get discounts *big smile* 

Nervous that I've many exams to come! No no no rest :( sigh. Well,5 more months till I fly off to the States. Hopefully,this time it will be interesting. NO MORE HIGH SCHOOL DRAMA. I'd love a good freshman year. 

But all os gooooood. Felt super goooood right after I checked both my paper 1,history and maths so I'm hoping I'll score more on all the last papers I'm gonna take! weee woooo! :D 

xo

Recently...

Our Chiang Mai trip was amazing! I had a lot of fun despite the 12384757039482 km marathon I had to endure with my fellow white-mates! (kidding) I love how easy and natural it is to just relax and explore nature. We did bamboo rafting and I got to try it myself and I find it very cool but tiring :/ excuse me for being a posh,I don't always do CHORES around the house. We went elephant riding and there was this incident that terrified me. The man who was in control of the elephant named "Bo" was actually beating her up. Naili and I had to scream to ask him to stop. He stared at us and laugh but till then,he stopped beating her up. Spent 300 on elephants food! Such big and beautiful creatures :)
We didn't get to go tanning or anything. Enjoyed good food and good bargain at the night market and some thai massage! Overall,Chiang Mai is just plain beautiful. Ooh,mom and I met party girls from Sydney and NZ who had this very "blonde" accent. She's actually blonde,so yeah.

....and then Sydney (: went around June so it was practically winter in Aussie. Weather was a bit chilly. I swear at that time I wish I could've wore a face protector. We went up to Blue Mountains and stayed over at Madison where I met Wendy and her daughter Jack who told me that she saved up some cash from her summer part-time job in Sydney that she applied to NSW with that money itself. "You make ridiculous money here as compared to South Africa" was her exact words. Starting to miss baby Hallifax now that I'm writing this post.

As I said,I'll blog more frequently once I'm dne with exams which I am (well,partially). SPM is in one month and I'm 60% prepared? Guess so. Hopefully I'll be able to be fully prepared for SPM soon. I blame SPM for restricting me from doing what I love to do. I've created a bucketlist of things to do after SPM although I doubt I'd be able to complete it by May since I'm going to start Uni soon. Mom thinks its good for me to start classes during the summer so it'll be easy for me to adapt to my 'new' life during the Fall where I have to attend all full credit hours. Boring. 


Basically,I won't be free after SPM. I have my TOEFL,SATs and piano exams to compplete which will probably take 5 months and then I have to get my driving license. So yes,I only have 3 months of relaxation before I leave for the States. Scary though,in just about 8 months I'll be an independemt woman living on a high altitiude mountain (haha that's what I like to call WV as it reminds me of the song country homeee). But nevertheless,I am excited as well.
And I really have to start going to the gym everyday! Once I'm done. I'll be finishing on the 28th and then I'm a freee bird. Okay,not exactly. I won't even be able to find myself a decent job besides tutoring and mom has this crazy idea that I should volunteer as one of the instructors in OBS but I'll think about it. Come on,someone who's afraid of nyamuks ain't fit for a job like that! Haha. I was planning on doing some charity works like volunteer at the SPCA or an ohanage. Like tutor amd help little kitties. It'll be fun! 
There you go,a sneak-peek on my bucketlist.

Say Hi

Hello kawan-kawan! Ok,lame intro. Anyways,I haven't blog in ages! It feels so weird cause I like to voice out my opinion and when I do,it is never gooood. So I've decided to start blogging again. I tried to activate my old blog but blogger has now change their frigging websites and I can't find my old blog anymore. How sad :( I had a lot of things in there that were private and I wanted to share it y'know. but whatever so yeah.

Been feeling like a total slacker this term. Like I'm not putting enough effort at the things I do. Terribleeee. I hate it when I feel like this total loser who can't cope up with my studies. I was doing so well first term and now it's just like woah. Anyhooo,IE's in a week. Idk how I'm going to shove Chem and add math formulas or Datuk Naning stories or different types of lights into my head. Hopefully,I'll get it done by tomorrow!

A lot of things happened that I'd like to blog about,this year mostly:
-5L class dinner at Delicious
-Australia trip
-sleepovers at Puteri's house with Nabu & yasmin
-BBQs


Many more exciting events to come (which I will definitely or hopefully blog about if I'm 'rajin'):
-PROM
-Puteri's 17th Bday party
-me turning 17 on the 29th June (A DATE YOU SHOULD NEVER FORGET *kidding*)
-SPM hahahaa okay,joke.

Btw,I plan to not have any celebrations on my bday. I just want peace and quiet. No celebrating with the family side or anything. JUST ME. IN MY ROOM. Playing sims or reading a book or meditating or just sleep. PEACE and QUIET. (I would secretly enjoy a piece of cake tho or a red velvet cupcake lol)

OKAY,now mom plans to do a bbq and I've gotta go.